I went on this pretty epic road trip by myself to Las Vegas from Seattle and I really found out who I am and how I see the world. I’m so happy that no one could persuade me out of this trip because it really opened up my eyes.
I’m a lot more hippie than I thought. In terms of being open with myself as well as being open to others and how they perceive things. I’m okay with just going with the flow and seeing where things end up without a plan. It’s amazing how much time and energy you focus towards negative things in your life when honestly, it’s a lot more satisfying if you just acknowledge that something/someone sucks and just move on. I’m happier knowing that I’m surrounding myself with things/people that make me happy and just go from there.
I also found out where my mind wanders to when it is left unattended. I honestly won’t be able to fully comprehend those feelings until April. I’m unhappy about it but happy about it. It will give me the time and space to think where I see myself going without restrictions. At the same time, all these what if’s are bouncing around in my head and it hurts to leave yourself vulnerable like I did.
But overall, I’ve discovered who my real friends are and who I truly want to surround myself with. I’m done constantly trying to make everyone happy and, for once, will put my happiness first.
The ability to feel content is overwhelming. I feel that the only thing keeping me from going everywhere at once is my skin. (ahhh what movie!?)